For the longest time I would leave the first few pages blank. It’s difficult to remember any time where I started on the very first page of a notebook. The content itself wasn’t an issue, it was the need for a beginning. I had every intention of drawing up a beautiful cover page that would be a reflection of its content, but those empty pages had such a hold over me as they were constant reminders of falling short of my expectations.
Have you been in a similar situation? Feeling like you’ve fallen short of the mark and being reminded of that whenever you try to take a step forward? This can be a real stumbling block for people, myself included.
One step at a time.
The things we go through in life are relatable. We’re not alone.
There may be an ease to thinking our struggles are so unique to us and that others would find it difficult to understand, but at the same time it is so refreshing to overcome the fear of being alone. Having a beginning for this blog has been a challenge for me. There’s a desire to produce content that speaks to you on some spiritual level while also staying grounded in being honest about my own walk with the Father. Does the duty fall on me to find that balance? I’m not sure. What I do know is God’s love is beautiful and His grace covers a multitude of sins.
We don’t have to bear the pressure of being perfect. Can’t we just live this life with God and allow ourselves the time to grow and mature and to recognize the beautiful blessings that He has freely given? This verse has popped up a lot lately and it seems important for where I’m at right now:
Now to Him who is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly more than all that we dare ask or think [infinitely beyond our greatest prayers, hopes, or dreams], according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations forever and ever. Amen.
Ephesians 3:20-21 (AMP)
God does so much for us. He hears our cries, He shoulders our burdens, He orchestrated a beautiful plan for man’s redemption, and we have forgiveness based on His overflowing grace. No matter what circumstance is screaming for you to proceed with self-pity, doubt, anger, or uncertainty, the Father’s desire for you to be at peace and to be comforted is far greater. It’s totally okay to have those feelings. It’s okay to be in a place where you don’t know where to start or how to move forward.
You are not alone in this struggle.
There’s so much more that goes into starting a blog than just the first entry. You have the page design, formatting, color and font details, homepage settings, menu options, widgets (I had no idea what a widget was until recently), image options, post settings, and other parts that work together to make a cohesive website. To take this even further, we are more than a beginning, we are more than a middle, and we are more than an end.
Those first few blank pages may have had a hold on me in the past, and it may have been difficult to start this blog and follow through with releasing it to the public, but something will always remain the same: God is with me through it all. I am what God has purposed me to be.
God is there with you through all of life’s struggles.
Who’s to say where this adventure will take us? The Lord knows! In the meantime, go easy on yourself. You’re probably doing a lot better than you think. This post doesn’t highlight specific details of my life, but that’s not the focus right now. I was tricked into gauging my self-worth and success based on where my neighbor was at. This way of thinking doesn’t lead you to that sound mind that you read about in the Word of God (the Bible). Instead, think on these words:
Hear my cry, O God,
listen to my prayer;
from the end of the earth I call to you
when my heart is faint.
Lead me to the rock
that is higher than I,
for you have been my refuge,
a strong tower against the enemy.
Psalm 61:1-3 ESV
We change. Our neighbor changes. So many variables are constantly changing in this world. The only thing that doesn’t change is our God. He is our rock and He is our fortress. He desires relationship with His children. He desires a relationship with you. Talk to Him about your struggles and your uncertainties. It may not be Hollywood-style where you hear a deep voice instructing you on exactly what to do, and it may not be the most ideal environment where you begin your prayer, but God knows what you have need of. Being honest with your Father is much more profitable than putting on a Christian facade.
Alright, one step at a time. Try to begin with an honest evaluation of where you’re at right now, despite how messy it may seem, and picture a loving Father standing before you with open arms saying “I love you my child, I love you more than you could ever imagine. I will continually pour blessings into your life. You’re my precious one and there is nothing that will break this love I have for you.”
You are God’s precious child. Let’s move forward even when the messy moments of life hit us where it hurts. One step at a time. One beautiful, thankful, messy, simple step at a time.
Keep your beautiful minds on what God has already given you and embrace that thankfulness in your heart because there is nothing that you did to earn that love. It is freely given.